How come I can't get out?

Screw grammer.

Yay for plastered smiles and swallowed tears.

I'm engaged, yay! It happened yesterday around 1pm. <-- That's for whoever just hears about it so they don't think they are too behind in finding out. :) Yay!

Oh, I just posted a few pics on here for anyone who wants to see the ring close up.

For those of you who read this, here is my update for this week:

Thank you for the prayers, they have done wonders...especially me spending time in prayer with my God too.  I didn't realize that people still really read this until my last update, so I might start using this again every so often.

This week has gone really well. A lot of new beginnings/fresh starts. Life could not be much better than it is right at this instant. I am satisfied to be where I am in my life, happy to have a wonderful Savior, and blessed to have such wonderful family, friends, and roommates (they have their own category ;).

I am going to miss Josh's family though. They just left to go back over to Africa this week. I really hope I get to go there this summer...I am dying to go. I would just jump on a plane right now and leave if I had the money (and could skip out of school...although I would prob just drop this semester, lol). That's the next thing on my prayer list I think...that we raise enough money to go (and get back from) Africa this summer.

Well, I think my laundry just finished so I am going to get it and then it is off to bed for me.

Pray for Josh's fam! :)

Heya kids. It's been a while since I have written in here but I really kinda miss xanga. It actually let you read something instead of just staring at pics on other ppl's sites. I used to log onto here all of the time...but now I hardly ever get on the internet except to check my email.

So life has been really difficult lately. I'm struggling. Things in my life that should not be so hard for me to handle are impossible now and my emotions are all over the place. I feel like I am slowly falling apart. It's a very terrible feeling...especially since there aren't a lot of reasons to me that I should be going through all of this. I guess there aren't always answers for why your body acts a certain way, though. I just don't know what else to do anymore to feel better...I feel helpless and out of control.

I try to lean on God...but it is so hard to do when you can't even control your next emotion at times.

Well, I have another class to go to. Please pray that things get better. There is so much I want to do with my life and so many things I want to enjoy. Pray that things in my life straighten out...that I can get to feeling better so that I can keep the focus more off of me and more on things that I find to be important in my life. I don't know...just pray.

Peace. Tiff